Monday, December 31, 2012

I'm holding on to Your promises...

Praise God for his gift of music. It has always brought healing for me. Although I still feel like I'm treading water and trying to keep my head above the surface, God's encouragement and love helps me to feel like I can put my feet down on a platform instead of sinking sand when I get tired of swimming.

Whom Shall I Fear By Chris Tomlin

You hear me when I call

You are my morning song
Though darkness fills the night
It cannot hide the light
Whom shall I fear?

You crush the enemy
Underneath my feet
You are my sword and shield
Though trouble linger still
Whom shall I fear?

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies is always by my side
The One who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies is always by my side

My strength is in Your name
For You alone can save
You will deliver me
Yours is the victory
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?

And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in Your hands
I'm holding on to Your promises
You are faithful

Friday, December 28, 2012

Stella Kate

Our Sweet Stella Kate at 19 Weeks and 2 days

We had to say goodbye to our sweet baby girl on December 27th. I hadn't felt movement in a couple days and went to the doctor on December 26th to check for her heartbeat. They couldn't find one. 

Our hearts had made a place for Stella and now that place is just empty. We miss her terribly. 

We know that she is with our Savior and is warm and safe. But we are not and just want her to be with us. 

We are so thankful for all of the blessings God has given us but we still long for the warmth of our sweet baby girl in our arms.

Stella Kate Reddington was delivered at 8:59 on December 27th. She weighed 1 pound 9 ounces. She was 12 inches long. 

We were able to hold her all day until we left the hospital.

We are so thankful for all the prayers and thoughts from our friends and family. We are so incredibly blessed. 

"Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." He will cover you with his feathers and under his wings you will find refuge." Psalm 91

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

16 Weeks

Excuse the poor quality iPhone photos-- but here is the belly at 16 weeks!

Still feeling great overall! We find out in about a month whether this little one is a little boy or girl! Most recently I've had a strong feeling that it's a boy!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

A New Kind of Post

So, since having a baby (and probably before if I'm going to be honest), at night I usually just plop in front of the TV for a couple hours, zone out and get nothing done. Sure some nights there are shows that are favorites and it's completely entertaining. But most nights it really is mostly boring and I go to bed feeling completely zoned out and like I haven't added anything to my life by the hours and hours of TV I have watched.

There are so many things I want to learn and take the time to do that can't be done during the day while I'm with Quinn. There is also a need to have "me" time that for some reason isn't usually fulfilled by just watching TV. I feel like I'm just wasting precious time watching TV all night. While it's not like my personality to be GO GO GO all the time, I'd really like to carve out some time most nights to start to work on learning things and getting things accomplished so that I look back and am proud of how I spent my time. I was going to wait until the New Year to make this a New Years Resolution but I've realized I want to start now.  Here are the things I'm looking forward to starting or learning:

1. Crocheting/Knitting - With a baby on the way, I'd really love to make something for the little one. It's so much fun for me to make things for people I love. So I am drawn to making gifts for others as well! I also have realized that I am a pretty quick learner when it comes to this kind of thing and I need to take advantage of it. I just taught myself to crochet and I've known how to knit for a couple years. I have tons of yarn that is beautiful and begging to be used.
2. Quilting- My mom is so incredibly talented as a seamstress. She can pretty much sew anything and make it look perfect. She has been quilting for decades and is also in a quilting bee. It is really important to me that I take the time to learn this craft from her. I know that I will always be grateful to have taken the time to spend with her and learn from her. And hopefully one day I can pass it on to my children if they are interested.
3. House Decor- I have a list of projects that need to be done around the house to "finish" it. It includes MANY photos that need to be hung all around the house.
4. Exercise- Although I'm not trying to go start a new running routine while pregnant, getting out of the house to go to the gym and literally walk on the treadmill in peace sounds like GREAT me time. I'd like to make this a priority!!

Those are just some things that have been floating around in my head that I desire to learn and do! I'm going to try and document what I make so that I can look back and see how I have spent my time! As of now, I just have a crocheted square that is done because the yarn ran out while I was teaching myself how to crochet. I think I have my next projects in mind but they are Christmas gifts so they won't be shown for a good while! :)

What other things should I take the time to do in the evenings that will feel like me time? Any ideas of what you find interesting or fulfilling??

expecting... a new BABY!

We are so happy to announce that we are expecting a new baby around April 28th, 2013!

Our little ones will be around 18 months apart... a busy and exciting journey is upon us! :)

I am going to try to document this pregnancy as well as the last (which wasn't the best anyway) but I already know that I will be a little distracted loving on Quinn in these last months I have with just him! But my goal is to have a full post about baby #2 each month.

I am currently 14 weeks and I'm feeling great. I had a little rougher first trimester than with Quinn. I was pretty nauseous all the time from about 6 weeks to 11 weeks. Food didn't really help and eating just sounded gross anyway. But I wasn't really getting sick so I guess that is definitely a blessing! I also was pretty tired all the time and getting through night shifts at work were really rough. I really didn't want to get off the couch but that's a little difficult with a 10-11 month old at the time! I also have felt like this pregnancy has made me loose my mind! I am always loosing something, forgetting something I had scheduled or getting lost places I really should know where I'm going! Definitely different than the first time around!

We just got our kitchen remodeled (pictures to come) in time to get the computer and desk out of the third bedroom and down to the kitchen instead! It was perfect timing! I'm now just dreaming about decorating another baby room! :) Hopefully one day I'll get pictures up of Quinn's room too!

I'm not sure if we are going to be the best at taking pictures, but I will try to post some pictures from each month. They just probably won't be actual "belly" pictures all the time!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

One Year

How did we go from this...

to this...

in only one year.

It seems to have passed in the blink of an eye, yet those sleepy newborn days seem miles away!
Quinn has changed so much in the past two months.

He has gotten 4 teeth in the past month alone!
He's still OBSESSED with toothbrushes.

He has said his first words! Mama, Dada, ball, kitty, light and doggy and sheep sounds are all in his vocabulary! He loves to clamp  and wave "Hello", "Bye Bye" and "Night Night" and really loves to mimic about anything I do. He can show us his nose and his mouth. He can stick out his tongue and say "AHHH". He mimics my mannerisms all the time! He "wipes" his tray clean after he eats if I give him a wipe. He has learned to throw his pacis in his crib when I take him out of bed because we leave pacis in the crib! He gives the sweetest hugs anytime I ask and whenever he wakes up! He gives kisses too! Just today my mom got him to stick up one finger like "I'm 1!" after we practiced with him the past couple days. It just amazes me that I am able to actually teach him things!

He hasn't quite stood up on his own yet but if we stand him up he will take a couple steps towards us before reaching and falling on us (which he loves).

He is still such a laid back kid and never has a problem with different people watching him or going to the daycare at church. He's always, always just so excited to meet new people and be with them!
Visiting the pumpkin patch with Heather and Henry!

He is eating new things daily. We started introducing a small amount of dairy this month and it has gone great! He probably get one small serving of dairy a day. We also trialed soy and that didn't so well. Even bread with just a small amount of soy oil in it made him throw up. So I still have to be very careful with any processed food because most contain soy. But I am very confident that he will eventually grow out of this intolerance as well! He tried whole eggs a couple weeks ago and did wonderful! He has them almost every day now!
He LOVES any fruit.

Being Quinn's mom is never anything but a joy. Seriously. He is the sweetest, most loving little boy. There have been hard days when dealing with his reflux and allergies, but since figuring those out, it's been such a smooth ride. I just can't believe that I was blessed with such a caring, friendly and laid back little boy. God definitely spoiled me with this one :)
Spending time with his 93 year old great grandmother.

This birthday is so bittersweet. But it is such an overwhelming blessing.

 Happy First Birthday Quinn! Your Mommy and Daddy love you so much!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

10 Months

Stats: MAYBE 21.5 lbs (weighed on my parent's scale)

This month has been so amazing. It has been the most fun and easy month with Quinn. He is just growing up so much and it is still so bittersweet. I find myself defending that he is STILL a baby and he is NOT a big boy because I don’t want these months before one year to be grouped into the next months after one. He is STILL a baby—at least until he turns one! He is the easiest baby. He naps well, plays well, gives me snuggles but is still independent, sleeps at night like a champ and is all around just a breeze. 

And I can almost say this with certainty, our reflux struggles are on their way out. Three months ago I would have told you that I was sure he would struggle for many more months with his reflux. But his new formula and no dairy or soy in his diet has been miraculous. This month we started to wean his Prilosec and 10 days in, I can say he is doing wonderfully. We will wean him off completely in the next month or so. I actually have lots of hope that it will work! I have learned so much from this whole reflux struggle, as a person and as a mother and I know that if I go through it again, it will be with different eyes and a more positive open mind. One thing that I have learned and will not change is that as Quinn’s mother I am his best advocate and I know him the best. If I think he’s in pain, he probably is and there is no reason for him to stay that way! It was easy for others to pass off his symptoms as something else, but I knew deep down that he wasn’t comfortable and I am proud that I never stopped looking for an answer. It’s a momma’s job and I’ve learned to not be ashamed of it! 

 We are staying at my parents because of our kitchen remodel and it has been heavenly to have my family around! I love having the help and the company and Quinn is in love with his grandparents and his uncle! Most of the time I’m pretty sure he’d rather be with his “Mimi” than with me! It is so fun to watch him with them! I’ve been able to take tons of pictures this month because I always have an extra set of hands to help with Quinn! So I have TONS of photos this month- I couldn’t decide which ones to post, so I just posted all the ones I like!
He LOVES throwing stuff out of the dishwasher!

He loves my mom SOOO much. She is the highlight of his day these days!

 We went to my cousin Jessica's wedding in Omaha, NE in August. He was amazing the whole drive there and back. I was really stressed about it, but he was PERFECT. He also slept through the night every night there-- in his pack n play in the bathroom. :) It was the perfect place to put him! 

His new bow tie was too much fun. And he was great with it and left it alone the whole time it was on!
 He was pretty tired during the wedding but did SO well!

Except for going a little crazy in the back of the church! :)

He attended some of the reception in style in his PJs. And then we put him to bed upstairs at the hotel and had a sitter to watch him while we celebrated with everyone! It worked out so great!

Here he is with the bride and groom!

 His favorite things: pointing, sharing, and smiling.

 His first time in a swing. He wasn't too thrilled about it but I got him to smile once!

 We threw a surprise 60th birthday party for my mom this month! Quinn's aunt Lauren came to help celebrate!

 And a friend of mine from work made a beautiful cake for my mom! It was the highlight of the night!!

Quinn loves to climb up stairs and he has started to learn how to climb down them as well!

 I never thought he would want to hold his bottle but this month he decided that he loves it!

We have taken some wonderful walks in my parents neighborhood before bedtime!

 We have had some great baby pool time!

He wore big boy pajamas for the first time this month! And I can't get enough of them! Plus there is easy access to his diaper! :)

He is having a ball at my parents house! I love seeing my parents with Quinn. It just reminds me how amazing they are as parents and challenges me to be like them! They are a lot to live up to! :)

Here's a quick rundown of this months changes!

New Foods: Hummus, Bread, pickles (doesn’t like them), Lemons (likes them!), blueberry banana pancakes, tater tots

Sleeping: THROUGH THE NIGHT!! J It’s been amazing to put him to bed and actually look forward to the next time that I get to see him!! He usually goes to bed between 7 and 8 and sleeps until 6:45-7:30ish in the morning. He takes two great naps of at least an hour but usually an hour and a half to two hours.

Likes: Toothbrushes, pointing, sharing and showing things, remotes (still), tickles, drawers, riding on daddy’s shoulders, throwing everything out of his crib a couple times before going down for naps.

Dislikes: Diaper changes, clothing changes, anything that involves lying down, when his bottle is empty, sippy cups, getting in his car seat.

Talking: Baba, Mama, Dada. Nothing "real" yet... mostly just babbling.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

9 Months

9 Months Stats
Weight: 20 lbs 5.5oz (50th percentile)
Height: 30 inches (95th percentile)

These faces have been the newest development. He is whiny... OH so whiny when he wants something. I have to say it's completely adorable MOST of the time. At 9 months he is expressing himself so much!! He has something to say about most things.
After a couple days of whining like this, I figured it out! He was HUNGRY! Literally every time he starts fussing if I give him food, he is SO happy. This is is 180 from the baby I knew! This kid LOVES LOVES LOVES to eat!!! I'm not sure if he's just getting older or if it has something to do with his tummy feeling better since being on the hypoallergenic formula, but it's amazing. I LOVE IT!! I know that I said that I was going to continue to nursing him but after supplementing one bottle a day before bedtime thickened with rice cereal to see if it helped his reflux, my supply went down fast! I decided not to fight it and give hypoallergenic formula a try. While I was definitely disappointed that I wasn't able a nurse him to at least a year, I am now completely okay with it because it has been such a good experience. He eats Similac Alimentum Ready to Feed and it has almost completely cut out any reflux. It's just nuts. For some reason the ready to feed version is so much better on his stomach because he still spits up a ton on the powdered version. So strange I know.... this kid is a complete mystery to me when it comes to his GI system. But I am thanking the Lord for this formula day in and day out because of how wonderful it is for him. I rarely even carry a burp cloth with me anywhere!! This leads me to believe that not only was he reacting to dairy but soy as well. :( boo. Our next challenge will come around 12 months when he is ready to transition onto some sort of milk. I'm not quite sure how that will go so I'm just enjoying this time while it lasts! :)

I've come to terms with the fact that there just might some food issues for Quinn for a little while. I'm hoping that he grows out of them quickly though! I thought that it might be a good idea to keep track of what he's had and how it's gone over thus far.

Allergy List:
Milk- Reflux
Egg Yolks- Diaper Rash (Still have yet to try them again or try egg whites)
Cinnamon- Diaper Rash
Gerber Puffs- Spits up/Reflux-- I don't understand this one but every time he eats them he spits up immediately afterwards. I've read random places online that there is dairy in the Banana flavor but the ingredients don't show that it contains dairy so obviously it doesn't? I haven't tried to see if there is a difference between flavors because we just went ahead and switched to Cheerios instead!

Successful Foods He Has Tried 
Sweet Potato
Green Beans
Butternut Squash
White Potato
Beans (Black, Cannellini,Lima)
Chicken (still not sure how he tolerated this-- lots more spit up that night and have yet to try it again)
Cantaloupe Melon
Olive Oil

At 9 months he isn't doing anything super new physically, he just is getting faster and more agile at things like crawling and pulling up. He's started to cruise more and more as well. He still really isn't interested in walking with us when we hold his hands. He would much rather just get down and crawl.

This month we have really tried to tackle sleep. He continues to wake up around 2 times a night, 1 time on a good night. After talking with his pediatrician at his 9 month appointment, she reassured me that he doesn't need any of the calories that he is getting at night to grow, he has just gotten used to needing the bottle to get back to sleep. SO we have started to wean him off the bottle at night. An ounce less every night or two. It seems to be working! I hope that at his 10 month appointment that I can say that he is sleeping through the night the majority of the time and if he does get up that he doesn't need to have a bottle to go back to sleep. Naps have become very dependable and pretty routine. He has dropped his third nap and seems to be doing well except for a pretty early bedtime around 6:30-7. His first nap is around 1.5-2 hours and his second nap is around 45 mins- 1.5 hours. It's so wonderful to have time to myself and to know that he is getting great sleep during the day! :)

So far this is my favorite age. He is SO much fun to be around and he is so much more independent!! I love his expressions, watching him think and figure things out and just playing with him!! He is just the sweetest! He is so good at kisses and hugs and he gives them to other people all the time! He loves to play with new people and loves animals! He is actually pretty gentle with them and usually screams when he sees them, crawls to them and pets them gently. We will see how long that lasts! :) This month has made me realize that he is not a little baby anymore. Gone are the days of rocking and snuggling (unless he's sick) and the days of climbing, playing and throwing things are here. It is so bittersweet.

(We are staying at my parents right now because our kitchen is being remodeled so I don't have our cord for the camera to upload more pictures. I update with more 9 month pictures when I can!)